Dear Diary,
My whole life is spent trying to analyze myself and find out who I am. I question everything I do and sometimes I just want to lock my brain away and stop thinking about what is wrong with me. Surely, I should be normal. I should like to be with people! I shouldn’t worry...worry about coming to the end of this particular road because it looks like I’ll crash.
-end of text message.
(Dear Diary is a forum game that isn't a game. It's a place to be creative and entertaining.)
I've been thinking about my brain lately. My brain contains a finite number of neurons, and those neurons can only be connected in a finite number of ways. From a finite number of connections, there is only a finite number of states my brain can be in. If each thought I have is a finite number of states my brain goes through, does that mean there is only a finite number of thoughts I can have?
I am thinking about this now, so my current thoughts must be in that finite set. When thinking about *that*, I just crossed off another thought in that finite set. And that's another though! So there goes another element of that set. My heard hurts...
It must be nice to be a diary. You don't think, or do you? If you do, do you ever think about the thoughts I'm expressing on your pages? Do you think about yourself thinking those thoughts?
My dearest PRINCEF TAAANX hasn't responded to my letter ever since she had embarked the journey to Dog Island. I deeply worry about her. I've heard she went to go find Dr. Putan to cure the illness of her little brother, Emilio. I've heard the trips to Dog Island was dangerous, as to the potential of storms so strong it can make a dog gone in it. I am, as a love sick pup, wishing her the best of things to come to her and be safe on her journey to find the cure. As I am waiting for her belovedness of a Pomeranian, a German Shepherd has to keep watch of what's going on in Puroro Town, including some possible check ups on her little brother. I do wish her to be here again, along with bringing the cure to help her little brother before he falls into a deeper state in which no cure can cure him.
- Sincerely Yours,
ROXY BAAAHD
Dear Diary,
Today I read through other people's diary.
They don't seem to suspect a thing.
-Pi
"Sometimes, I feel as if everyone on the internet has this digital art fetish.." IKR? I'm stuck doing digital because I don't exactly have a printer and I can't upload to the internet right now. Honestly I don't think people give you enough credit for your art.
Dear Diary,
You are so awesome. You never tell my secrets like when I cheat on Spiral Knights with those other games nor do you tell the dirty little details of what I've done. You don't judge me and snicker if I tell you my fan fictions or label me as "lame".
That story I wrote about King Tut, you would have understood my typo and never perm-banned me for it. You wouldn't have sent me nasty letters or called me all those names. AH! It was just a mistake. Spell check didn't tell me it was wrong.
Speaking of mistakes. You were the only one by side all those long nights and frightful dinners and I thank you for it. I couldn't have been anymore embarrassed on a date. That neon colored shirt. Who would have ever thought we would have shown up on the news. I'm just so glad you were there waiting for me when I got home instead of my folks sitting there watching TV.
^ I dont see anything off about that screenshot
(not saying your name because auto correct hates caps)
Dear Diary,
Lately, I've been thinking how useless I am.
Love, Green-Neko
(P.S. I hate myself more recently.)
Dear Diary, why am I writing letters to an object that is theoretically only an inanimate object, but in reality is not even that and is just a forum thread? Now that I realize this, I have concluded that I must be insane, given that I have come to this realization and am continuing to write as if this is a letter when in fact it's a glorified tumblr post. That means I'm just talking to myself, which is a sign of insanity. And my head hurts from writing this incredibly meta paragraph in the first person but addressing myself, which means it should be in the first and second person at the same time, except that's gramatically impossible and you would have to invent new words... see what I meant by the "head hurts" part?
Proceeding onwards with the knowledge that I am, in fact, insane, and embracing that fact, I'd like to talk about some things. Some fairly controversial things. But seeing as this is a public forum and saying such things might actually get me forum banned, I'm going to not do that. Oh well.
P.S. I wish there was a way to rant about things in public without negative repercussions that could still cause positive change. Did I just do a mini-rant about ranting? Is this entire thread about ranting? Do I go on tangents a lot? Why do I break the fourth wall so much?
I want you to tell me every secret except mine that people have written/typed down so I can post them on confession threads all around the internet and then banned on every account on every website.
P. S. I especially want the secret recipe to the original Coca-Cola so then I can sell it to dealers in the streets of NY.
*WARNING: THIS IS MDJ'S SUPER ULTRA ANGRY RANT, PROCEED AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION*
Dear Diary,
Sometimes, I feel as if everyone on the internet has this digital art fetish, whenever I draw something with my hand, pencil, crayon pencils and eraser, it always seems as if it gets far less praise than if it was done on the computer. Whenever someone is offering digital commission in the treasure vault, it seems every single denizens of the forum just started to flock in and fight to be the first to be drawn. But does the samething happen to me if I offer free drawings? No.
I give you a particular example, Thinslayer, I drew this guy THREE ABSOLUTE MASTER PIECE , sure, he never asked for them, but for the efforts I put in, I think I should atleast get a compliment from him, but no, I got nothing. But when Jester shows up on the forum, I remembered how he is first to ask for request and burned CE on the commission. I DREW THREE PIECES FOR FREE AND I DIDN'T EVEN GET A RECOGNITION. And he even complainted that I have no good will toward him in a religious debate, ARE THESE THREE DRAWINGS A SIGN OF MY ILL WILL???!!!
Okay, I know what you are thinking, 'Well, Midnight, the problem with your drawing is that you always derail from the original request.' Well that is stupid, why wouldn't you let an artist do that? As an artist, I have the liberty to express my self in my drawing whether if it is a request or not, it is just how I am. And I think many artists here could relate. Sure, I somertimes do weird and quirky stuff with my requests, but let's be honest here, how many artists out there are willing to go an extra mile just to pump some innovation and creativity into your drawing request?
Examples:
http://midnightdj-sk.deviantart.com/art/Liminori-and-Sawhero-s-commissio...
In this drawing, the girl on the right was requested by Liminori, all he wanted is a girl with a cape and left the clothing to my imagination, so I did so by getting inspiration from my gaming experiences. The suit you are seeing there is made by me with my imagination alone, the result is a suit that is a hybrid of the Starcraft ghost's stealth suit and the sneaking suit from Metal Gear Solid.
http://midnightdj-sk.deviantart.com/art/FIGHT-DIE-REPEAT-465972099
This drawing is for one my real life friend for his birthday present, and since he played dark souls alot, so I drew this as a gift. This may seem like a plain black and white drawing with marker pen, but if any of you know about the lore of both dark souls 1 and dark souls 2, then you will notice that the characters from the left side are from DS1 and the characters on the right are from DS2 and on each row, the two characters serve a similar role in the two games.