Dear Diary,
My whole life is spent trying to analyze myself and find out who I am. I question everything I do and sometimes I just want to lock my brain away and stop thinking about what is wrong with me. Surely, I should be normal. I should like to be with people! I shouldn’t worry...worry about coming to the end of this particular road because it looks like I’ll crash.
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(Dear Diary is a forum game that isn't a game. It's a place to be creative and entertaining.)
*WARNING: THIS IS MDJ'S SUPER ULTRA ANGRY RANT, PROCEED AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION*
Dear Diary,
Sometimes, I feel as if everyone on the internet has this digital art fetish, whenever I draw something with my hand, pencil, crayon pencils and eraser, it always seems as if it gets far less praise than if it was done on the computer. Whenever someone is offering digital commission in the treasure vault, it seems every single denizens of the forum just started to flock in and fight to be the first to be drawn. But does the samething happen to me if I offer free drawings? No.
I give you a particular example, Thinslayer, I drew this guy THREE ABSOLUTE MASTER PIECE , sure, he never asked for them, but for the efforts I put in, I think I should atleast get a compliment from him, but no, I got nothing. But when Jester shows up on the forum, I remembered how he is first to ask for request and burned CE on the commission. I DREW THREE PIECES FOR FREE AND I DIDN'T EVEN GET A RECOGNITION. And he even complainted that I have no good will toward him in a religious debate, ARE THESE THREE DRAWINGS A SIGN OF MY ILL WILL???!!!
Okay, I know what you are thinking, 'Well, Midnight, the problem with your drawing is that you always derail from the original request.' Well that is stupid, why wouldn't you let an artist do that? As an artist, I have the liberty to express my self in my drawing whether if it is a request or not, it is just how I am. And I think many artists here could relate. Sure, I somertimes do weird and quirky stuff with my requests, but let's be honest here, how many artists out there are willing to go an extra mile just to pump some innovation and creativity into your drawing request?
Examples:
http://midnightdj-sk.deviantart.com/art/Liminori-and-Sawhero-s-commissio...
In this drawing, the girl on the right was requested by Liminori, all he wanted is a girl with a cape and left the clothing to my imagination, so I did so by getting inspiration from my gaming experiences. The suit you are seeing there is made by me with my imagination alone, the result is a suit that is a hybrid of the Starcraft ghost's stealth suit and the sneaking suit from Metal Gear Solid.
http://midnightdj-sk.deviantart.com/art/FIGHT-DIE-REPEAT-465972099
This drawing is for one my real life friend for his birthday present, and since he played dark souls alot, so I drew this as a gift. This may seem like a plain black and white drawing with marker pen, but if any of you know about the lore of both dark souls 1 and dark souls 2, then you will notice that the characters from the left side are from DS1 and the characters on the right are from DS2 and on each row, the two characters serve a similar role in the two games.