The guild you joined was created around the idea of filtering out "bad fits" like myself, purely on the basis that I was a depressive mess. They took one look at me when I was like 17 and saw that I put too much time and effort into the forums, and saw it as dependent and unhealthy, and they blacklisted me.

I didn't really have friends back then IRL. I didn't really fit in anywhere. There was a lot of bullying in my life. School was kind of just where I went to get told how garbage I was. So yea, I spent a lot of time here because all I wanted to do was run away from all that, and I was a negative person because major depression does that to you.

That's what the guild you joined is- the idea that there is something inherently wrong with people like me, and I want to advocate strongly against that on principle, not just for myself but for everyone that suffers from mental illness, disability, trauma.. all that.

That being said, half of your guild broke off a while ago. Join that half. Be on the right side of this.