This post is directed only at people, who do not have the intention of insulting me or provoking me.

My last post makes me look somewhat bad and i would not continue posting at this point. But since there hasn't been any reaction to it, the way it should be, in a somewhat dead forum, not 1 where people just blindly accuse me and use it as their personal battleground, while i spend the effort to write down every detail, i want to set a few things straight. Because i can.

My "alt-name" is something, that i chose, when this forum was first given avatars. At that time i chose the Trojan Knight Avatar. And while i was a frequent forum poster, somebody else, who i hadn't even heard of before, was given attention in i think even an own forum thread. He had chosen the same avatar and people acted like "that avatar looks great! could you explain why did you choose this fancy awesome avatar?? *pretty eyes make*". I was pretty upset. And at the same time it robbed me of any individuality, which is what avatars are supposed to provide. Therefore the name "No-Thanks" as in no thanks to this system, without any chosen avatar.

And when i first played an RPG, it represented who we are in-game. It wasn't as clear at that time, that certain setups(like classes, or in this game weapons) are better than others. And having multiple characters with a "main" character also wasn't very widespread. A character represented who i was in-game. I eventually learned the term "sub-char". The first time i ever heard of "alt" that term was mostly because of people, who, you know, kind-of like "elitists", would create characters simply because they had certain advantages instead of choosing them because of preference. That was very upsetting, because those people could abuse their powers to speed-lvl, which made me feel less significant, and because they also made me feel less unique as my preferred class. It took a long time until i finally realized, that developers or game designers simply don't have it down to write classes, that shine the way they should.

And the fact, that you shouldn't go around disclosing your personal information to the public, also makes me upset at his "@alt-name". I don't know if there are any specific conditions, where you can comfortably share your full information..if you have to be a dominant white man, not somebody, who is oppressed, or simply somebody, who hasn't been told to keep such information safe. And you may be thinking, that he is only talking about character names, which is true, but this is how it makes me feel. To some degree he makes a point, but once a person talks like that, there is no end to it. No degree of complying to his all-free-from-sin-requests-that-are-also-looking-clean-in-public will ever resolve him nitpicking. I cannot, however, tell, when a person is purely messing with me and when he is making a point. Because that's what they aim at, the "conscience". Which for some reason never stops at any 1 point, but goes to the extreme end. My reaction, which makes me look like i'm somehow acquainted with that person, is me reacting defensively after reading things like "@alt-name" and the accusation of "me judging my friend" and "poor excuse for elitism". Reading this makes me think, that this person is a bad person. And while i cannot tell, if his accusations are real or if he is just being a bad person, i know for a fact, that there is no point in arguing with that guy. What i can attempt to do, however, is explain the "elitism" topic.

I'm a normal guy and i'm not going to put up with whoever i find in the game. And i am moody, too. That is exactly, where my conscience declares me as "guilty". However, to clarify: Elitists are usually people, who move in groups, and who exclude other people from playing. In this game in particular, i have read reasons like not having optimal weapons, for example. And i am not talking about Bopp's post. I have actually read somewhere, that a person has complained about being kicked for that reason, even before having played. I am not 1 of those people. In fact, i hate these type of people. Sure, there are times, where i'm not going to continue being patient, because i want to have a good time playing the game, too. But what is being ignored here is how much i put up with another person before saying goodbye(not literally. just leaving and removing friend, plus ignore..).

Another point, that could make you have doubt is the idea of "friendship". I cannot really say much about that. I want nothing to do with any kind of social allies, mafias, communitys or other type of groups, that abuse their power if they cannot maintain a proper way of treating each other and being generally good people. "Good" not in the sense, that is forced upon us by texts of god, but "good" in the sense, that it is in our nature to just be happy people and not mistreat each other. I couldn't care less for the label of "friend". <- This right here can already be used to make me look bad. And i can't really blame anybody if they really think that way. If every person out there has certain circles, then i insist on being a stand-alone. What people do in the name of "friendship" is certainly not good..unless it is done in the context of good people - for which you don't need any friendship. But i'm not judging even that. I refuse to be a "good person" as per being forced to. If i am being "good" it is either naturally there or from extra effort, because that on the other hand is written down. Not because i believe in something, but to simply tip the most powerful forces in this world into my favour. If i could be a super-saiyan or superman, i wouldn't care less..

And this isn't some kind of make-me-look-pretty post. In history there has always been torture. To this day i'm amazed whatever is in the heads of people, that makes them think, that no matter what cruelty, can only be exerted in 1 direction. I am the oppressed, who is talking back. However, i am not a 100% victim in this situation. I have been playing MOBA(multiplayer online battle arena) and there have always been people, who have been on my side, or at least neutral. But the last time i played, every person had abandoned me in a match of Smite. I haven't played ever since. The principal was, that people had developed certain customs for picking up health items, that hadn't even existed in the beginning. These health-items, if unpicked, are very useless. And picking them together heals the whole group, but it is also a very stupid thing to do, because it adds a timeframe, which takes away from the dynamic gameplay. So if i pick that up on my own, it can be considered bad, if for example, people with a less powerful opinion simply follow some group leader's opinion of the custom of picking it up together. But in any case, people can make their own choice and so can you. This post is just to clarify things from my perspective. I cannot know the full intention of any 1 poster. I have also had a person, who first talked bad about me and then started making me look good instead. I don't know what causes this talking bad. But the conscience, for some reason, is only at rest, when you can go all the way. And a truly bad guy doesn't stop even after all the way. Therefore i cannot really afford to comply to any 1 random person insulting me.

Here is a link of 1 of those smite matches:
https://smite-stories.netlify.app/

I don't really know what you are going to think of me after reading that. If you even bother to read any of this, i mean. But yeah, i don't have to comply to any 1 person. I have played matches, where i followed every complaint, that i have gotten, without being rewarded with a victory..i have had complaints, that i have gotten after complying with another person's complaint..i have had very few matches, where my presence really made a difference. I'm certainly not here to comply to some arrogant people like 1 of those people yelling at soccer players, who feel entitled to do so instead of playing themselves. But all of these people neither ensure your victory nor do they contribute to you being able to make your own choices or even have fun the way you want to. And all of them, including idiotic video game "pro" ads are completely ignorant of the fact, that the enemy team is just as entitled to win as you are, when it comes to pvp.

I have abandoned that game with good conscience. And while i do miss it, it has been a nightmare since day 1. Mainly because of how "MOBA players" feel entitled to command others around. Again, not only a very 1-way thinking, kind of like torture throughout history, but also something, that doesn't come with an objective reward like a victory. These people will say anything to justify their behaviour. To this day i don't even understand how bad people are capable of being successful in life. I have to sometimes think to myself how many things i have done, that my parents told me to do, just to remind me, that i'm the good guy. I don't really want to complain about what god thinks life should be or how he dares call himself "almighty" yet refuse to interfere with this world altogether. My life is really good and i know that. But there are certain shortcomings, which i find inexcusable. And i feel not responsible for those. All while having done what other people have wanted me to do. And it doesn't stop there. (people will continue to nag at me according to their wishes). I couldn't even enslave myself if i wanted to. People have the arrogance to ignore what i say or feel when i am right in front of them. But they are also surrounded by other people and all are very awake. People have pushed their behaviour to such ridiculous limits, that any degree of complying beyond what feels right would make me look like something isn't right with whoever i'm complying with. That then immediately causes a chain-reaction and makes that person look like he is doing something wrong or bad with me.

Don't pay too much attention to this post. I didn't have to go through the kind of hardships, that you see in the movie "barefoot gen". I also didn't suffer from whatever the japanese did to the chinese, or the americans to the koreans, or the "whites" to "blacks". But i am in this same world, where people cannot appreciate the simple beauty of life. That does not make me a good person. I know for myself how "good" of a person i am. I also do not believe in magical or miraculous mood changes, where you have a good day or a bad day or things like that.

Before i continue my selfish writings, a moment of attention to what people have been doing to others, while i have been having a good life.

And don't be fooled by people asking for charity. You don't know where the money goes. I, for example, had spent 50€ chunks, when i saw an ad speaking of poor children in africa. Because even if i'm not a "good" person, i cannot sit here saving for some fast pc, while i already have a fast pc, and when i could use that money to assist those people. They advertised, that 30$ could keep an entire village fed for a full month(yeah right..). My father had told me, that these people keep the money instead of helping people. I'm rather skeptical, when i hear all the things, that my father says, but sure enough after about half a year, when i had stopped donating, i received a letter from the same institution saying "how can you sit around, when people need help", roughly paraphrased. And the style of writing was exactly the same as the political party in germany, that acts basically like some form of "alterntive to nazis"..

Okay now i continue.

I wasn't created with the powers of being independent. And it isn't difficult to figure out, that any 1 way of life has not been made for humans..it's this era, that enables me to sit around and play games. Using electrical power, that comes from nuclear power plants.. If i had a job i would be doing just that. Fortunately people don't really care about my ability to work, but instead about what i look like on paper. I do not even want to write down what my resume is. I am certainly not proud of having been forced to go to school and if i ever write it down, it shall be for the sake of survival. But if there is a lack of harmony just because people are too arrogant, i will not put up with it, even if it were to cost me my life! I wasn't born with the inability to gain my own knowledge. And i also wasn't born with idea of "having to work". I can merely see, that i should play my part in any 1 society. But that ends, when society just exploits that to whatever ridiculous notions they have in their heads.

And to explain good or bad mood. In this world, i am constantly surrounded by arrogant people and an arrogant culture. I was a pretty quiet kid and i don't think this is the kind of treatment, that i should get..but i am not ignorant enough to not attribute certain imperfections to these things. I am also not stupid enough to not lay the blame on god, when there are powers, about which i cannot really do anything by simply not having done anything wrong. Things like "black friday" or "halloween" or whatever garbage people invent without admitting, that something is in the air. And "not having done anything wrong" in my case also does not go beyond the scope of a regular person. In my case, it is rather mild, having stolen something in kindergarten, because i felt lied to, when my father tryed to explain, that we're poor(and accordingly getting addicted to stealing and having stolen 1 or 2 more shiny rocks(not valuable ones obviously..in kindergarten)). And having killed 2 mice in an attempt to "save" them from people, who i perceived as hostile. Again, people, who i may have not even bothered becoming acquainted with, if it wasn't for my parents making me. And the "killing" was also not in the way, that you would expect, like how society has their idea of hitting a mosquito..no, it was very unpleasant to look at. Really sad, too. I obviously cryed as a kid, because that's not how i expected it to turn out. Other than that, maybe having learned bad behaviour from other bad kids like showing the middle finger. But also at the same time realizing at the first time of showing it, that maybe that is not considered "cool". I am not interested in disclosing any of this information here. And i couldn't care less! I swear to god, that under the same circumstances i will do the same things again!!! Because that felt right to me. Whatever trial there might be for it, that will be an outside force. I refuse to comply beyond "what has come to be(without me adding to it..)"

I just want to write this down, so, if there are any people out there, who are actually good and can still see my point..can actually join me on hating how Hatn has written to me. And believe me, when i say, that Hatn isn't the worst. I have opened up to forums and stopped posting there. Because when i start exposing myself in an attempt to make my innocence clear, people just start upsetting me more and more..there is no end(this applies to real life too..). To some degree, this too, can be considered some type of "elitism"(based on the accusation, that i'm the "elitist"). I cannot really tell. I mean all that a person can do is be willing to comply. And if that is just turned into a massive chain of mockery, then i don't consider myself guilty in the slightest. But i also cannot call myself a flawless person. Most certainly not the type of impression, that somebody like Hatn seems to make with his insulting, and provoking post. But i am okay with that. I am okay with who i am. The only thing, that i have never been okay with is what other people make me be. I mean just look at this. I have to expose this much text, while he sits comfortable looking like an innocent goat. And maybe he is. I'm not making any accusations beyond how he talked to me. I'm not even comparing. I just feel very insulted, when people make me look like someone, who i despise. E.g. an "alt" or an "elitist". There is a post, that i made in general discussion, where i use the term "elitist". I write there, that you are either an "elitist" or a "dead-weight"(not sure if dead-weight is the exact phrasing, that i used). With that i meant, for example, that the damage difference is big enough, that the weaker person looks like a dead-weight, if that is even a correct term, and the stronger person looks like an elitist. It is very different from what i consider elitism. But speaking up against elitism makes it hard, when you have somebody like Hatn nagging at you. They can make a story out of any 1 thing. I'm not going to put up with every kind of person in-game, that could be out there, just because i don't consider myself an "elitist". If, on the other hand, he means how i treat a "friend": Well then YES! Most definitely i will treat them like that. And if it wasn't for making the text more readable, i may have referred to him as just a "knight". But that would make it kind of difficult to say "me, a knight, and a 3rd knight". Now, that i look at it, maybe that isn't so difficult to read.

I also don't really know what this "judging" is all about. Usually "judging" means, that you either speak poorly of someone, evaluating him, making him uneasy. Or it could also apply if the thought "oh no, now he is judging me" made any sense. But it doesn't. I barely even talked. You may or may not be aware, but these days..talking can potentially make a random person, who thinks, that his foul language is welcome everywhere, start talking like it's no big deal. With swear words i mean. Or touching inappropriate topics. Sometimes intentionally bypassing chat filters. I actually remember doing that myself. I don't think, that i did that in a way, that would make others uneasy, other than for the sake of retaliating. I even remember, that i said "god damn" in a game once and my friend asked me "without the gd". And after thinking about that for a while i realized, that he meant "god damn" with "gd" and even if i saw nothing wrong with it, i reluctantly complied. Because he was a good friend. Not necessarily, that i could tell, that he was a "good" friend, but at that time people were around in games. People, who don't make you want to drop the game altogether the moment you see them!!!!!

And it is pretty clear, that there are 2 types of people out there. Those, that are willing to better themselves and those, who aren't. You cannot tell them apart, because a bad guy can cloak himself as a good person and a good person can have a bad day..or a reallllyyy bad day >;)

But back to the judging. My friend had joined me and greeted me once, but because of these reasons..that talking can ease up the atmosphere enough for bad guys to start feeling like "home"..i didn't say hi back. I may have occasionally joined him, too, before that, it doesn't really matter to me. Although i do try to avoid tier 1 and 2 runs, since i have gotten better gear, because i'm aware, that people could be bothered by that. I am also aware, that they could appreciate that, since i had bad gear not too long ago and it was also nice for some runs to have strong allies.

I am too busy playing instead of judging. Right when i step on a party button, i have already looked past certain mistakes and am preparing for combat. Until i get something knocked into me. You could consider that a fair evaluation for what they have done, if that's enough "judging" in order to write bad about me(and when i say "you", i am not talking to Hatn here, because i am not going to talk to that person). But really i just don't want to put up with him(him as in the friend ingame, not Hatn) anymore. I don't have any bad conscience for that. And my lengthy post explains in detail what could go wrong, so if anybody ever doesn't understand why i suddently left, then it should become pretty obvious..

With the limited entitlement, that i have, which is -100 in this forum and 0 in any "holy matters" i hereby demand full retaliation, revenge, punishment, or making-up-for for me having to expose myself to such an extent with no intention of doing so in an effort to cleanse my name from somebody, who even accuses my post of a "troll"(...). Amen.

And i may continue to comply beyond a personally preferred degree, if that seems better for society, if for example society cannot treat videogames in a healthy way and has to use additional restrictions because of that. Not because i ever think, that anything bad could be attributed to them, but simply because i acknowledge, that yes people are stupid enough to harm themselves from that and i am willing to bow my head to global restrictions for the sake of them being able to better themselves.

And i am not going to withhold the word "stupid"!!!

And i sure hope, that for whatever is left of this life, although free from hardships, but also ridded of all the good tv shows, that used to air for free in abundance and made the impression of living in a world, where people have a brain.. forums and games be usable in a manner, that is appropriate for the type of people, that should be playing and using them. Those, who are told to have a quiet, calm occupation, and most certainly never those, who make everything uneasy for others and even make me feel guilty of the same !!!!

I always wonder what happened to all the times, when people said, that i'm a good kid. Since when are bad people entitled to "report" people(LOL). A report function has always been a measure for the weak to fight back. Certainly not for some arrogant "elitists"(this time for sure!) to join their nazi forces.

Now if you'll excuse me, i will go mind my own business with the occasional thought of what kind of non-sense i will have to deal with next. Some other miraculous not-talking-back ? Actually having to read somebody's opinion of what they think of me, the good or the bad ? Or even having to face "trial" on this virtual platform for whatever rule fits to evaluate this text as inappropriate, or all of my posts.(still not talking to Hatn, because i will not talk to that person. But to whoever is reading. Even if i start with "Now if you'll excuse me", which is something, that could be said in a dispute, but unfortunately there is no guaranteed way of ridding myself of any 1 "opponent"(lol). Therefore i am saying it in the context of "now if you'll excuse me, there is this garbage that i will have to deal with now..")

Oh and while speaking of forum rules: sure there are some things, that cannot be reported in an official manner, in which case people like to collect "complaints" or things like that. But if you do find something wrong with my posts, please feel free to tidy your forum of people using curse words. I refuse to report such a post, because that indirectly implies, that i am okay with the law, which already fails to keep me at ease, as should be obvious by the end of this post. And yes, while i'm at it, you may interpret any way you want. I would most certainly refuse any terms, if i could then still play the game(as is appropriate for an innocent person). It is also mind-boggling, that i have to hear an affirmation from mr snowden before i can allow my own thoughts to have any form of validity in this world. Boo!

Hello.
I want to add some clarification.
I was looking through my old videos of games, some of which i compressed because my old external backup-drive didn't have enough space back then. I also checked my SK folder and noticed a text-file named "Spiral Knights Blocklist.txt". I probably made that because of character hopping, but i also wrote a detailed description WHY i would block anybody in the first place. This can of course lead to trouble if you are playing with more than just a single player and people are still chatting.

Before i continue i was thinking, that i recognize the name "Hatn" from old days of lockdown, which can still be true, but i was surprised to see his name on there. I am trying to write around the topic of how difficult it can be to write concise and satisfying looking words without getting distracted by either being too unhappy or too happy. So i will get to the point for now. Needless to say i lost any interest in reading forums after all i get is this, when all i tryed to do was leave an explanation behind for .. well whatever i don't wana be judgemental in text-form(still not going to put up with non-sense in-game).

According to that text file the very top player:
"Curse words: Uses curse words in a way, that bypasses chatfilters. Intentionally and knowingly."
Regarding this topic i am very much opposed to restricting people in ANY way. I am convinced, that if anybody does anything wrong, they can feel it even after they have done anything wrong or questionable. And accordingly they can learn. This isn't always the same for everybody, especially for younger people, who would naturally play a game like SK. So i didn't say anything, but at the same time reading those words made me angry, since that is why i enabled those chat filters in the first place. And so i used the ignore function.

Since Hatn is 2nd on my list, i am assuming, that he must have been in the same group. Let me quote:
"Ignored me: Sided with [other guy] by ignoring my question "have you played sands of time" with some random "oh there is an arena" comment or something, when i ignored [other guy], because he is a cursing punk"

I don't mind when people prefer to side with their "friends" and i would never want anything like "friendship" in that way. From what i have seen often times strangers are nicer than friends, since most people have the mentality, that you can do anything with a friend. But that's another story entirely. I still don't mind how other people decide to make THEIR choices.

Also i refuse to be called Asteroia by you, Hatn. Please respect my forum-name. I think you have caused enough damage already. I made this thread with good intention. AND i blocked your friend, knowing, that the whole world think they can say whatever they want. Maybe they should not do that in public, because i am just as real and i wouldn't mind firing back if i had the option. I am well aware, that if a kid, who is likely going to play SK, because SK is the kind of game for kids, isn't learning to be smart by seeing all the disgusting types of people, who are on twitch these days. Some of them look straight-up criminal. And since corona-times even the good guys put up a hostile mentality. I don't know what is wrong with people or why. But i grew up with superman on TV. Not the kind of crap, that they show these days with brutality or camera moving away from the action. But superman animated series. The mentality of that time is, that you are polite. And i don't mind if you are not, because i am opposed to rules. But if you do it in a way, that bothers me, don't mind if i ignore you. And don't take it to the forums. This wasn't even about you!

Stupid kid.

And for anybody else, after all this i don't expect anyody to take this seriously anymore. Learn your lessons on your own from here on. I'm retiring the spirit of the good intention, that i had in the name of these people.