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Thank you, Spiral Knights. I bid you a loving farewell.

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Mon, 04/28/2014 - 18:44
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Venomousbiohazard

I've since moved on from this game but it will always have a special place in my heart. I discovered this game when it first came out. I was pretty young then (still am) and it was my first MMO. For the first time in my life I was able to talk to other people besides my brothers and make friends outside of the restrictive village I grew up in (it was a third world country, and I was homeschooled. Friends weren't that easy to make there).

I hit puberty and started to find out how things worked. This was cut short by my mother catching me looking up gay adult material (I was only 12 then). My mother demonized me and shunned me for months, and even after that she'd remind me of my sinfulness every time she got mad at me. She then refused to believe I was gay and thought that she could "fix" me. I pushed away any odd feelings I had and built up the most "straight" persona I could, even not letting myself think of men in any way that wasn't insanely platonic. Most just figured I'd just been experimenting a little.

After that, I had depression issues. For a few years I got through the day by contemplating about suicide. However, Spiral Knights was always the bright light in my days. I'd run through the Jelly Palace or Vanaduke and completely forget about my problems. I found The Night's Watch, a guild full of insanely kind people that became my friends over time. It was simply my place to go to escape and talk about my problems. However, there was one thing that I never talked about.

Eventually, I couldn't force myself to be a fake persona anymore. I came out as gay to the Night's Watch around a year ago, and when I did my entire body was shaking. What I find funny is that the first place I went to was Spiral Knights. It was simply a good community to confide in. I don't think that I'd have been able to have the courage to eventually come out without the friends I'd made supporting me. Thanks to the community, I was able to accept myself and come out to my brothers and father, who are perfectly okay with it. I've moved to Canada and now I have a cute Irish boyfriend and more friends than I can handle!

Slowly, I've started to outgrow this game. The intervals of logging on are now few and far between. It's like a favorite teddy bear: it served its purpose, it kept away the bad things in life, offered solace where there wasn't any to be found. I'll always remember my favorite teddy, just like how I'll remember this game. Now though, it collects dust in it's little corner, although it'll **always** be fondly remembered. I know I have to move on, but I know that I needed to say goodbye to the game and the community properly.

Thank you Spiral Knights,
and I bid you a loving adieu

-Venomousbiohazard

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 08:12
#1
Oroseira's picture
Oroseira
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Mon, 04/28/2014 - 18:53
#2
Petater's picture
Petater
:c

Dude, I still miss you to this day. You added a lot to TNW back then in discussion and fun. Take care, we all miss you.

Phantom: you didn't know him, but a lot of others did.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 18:57
#3
Venomousbiohazard's picture
Venomousbiohazard
@Petater

Send my hugs to TNW. They're great people, all of them. Tell them thanks. You don't know how much I appreciated your help, all of you. Continue being awesome.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 08:12
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Oroseira's picture
Oroseira
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Mon, 04/28/2014 - 19:06
#5
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Curious-Mewkat

Good luck in your future endeavors, even though I don't really know who you are.

"looking up gay adult material (I was only 12 then)"
gosh you were worse than me.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 19:10
#6
Jabbzz's picture
Jabbzz

No offense, but people generally frown upon this [unless they are your close friends]. When people do this on forums, many of the replies are just gonna be this.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 19:16
#7
Whimsicality's picture
Whimsicality

It's a pain to hear you had to hide who you are, because of your parents' heavily outdated and bigoted views. At the very least, it's nice that a slice of this toxin-ridden community help you come to terms with your identity and accept who you are, and bring you joy. Best wishes for your future.

Ignore the Debbie-downers. They're just bitter for being treated the way they themselves are behaving. Also, somewhat relevant.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 19:17
#8
Skyguarder's picture
Skyguarder

@Venomousbiohazard
Sad to hear that you're leaving, Venomousbiohazard! I'd like to wish you the best of luck in your future (Even though I rarely see you in-game)!

@Phantomhamachi
You are one of the reasons why the community is toxic.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 19:16
#9
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Dementia-Praecox
@Jabbzz

No offense, but the forums are a place of free expression and thought, as long as it falls within the right side of the rules. If you or Phantom want to complain about it, that's your prerogative. Also, I find it highly ironic that Phantom is bashing on VBH for a well-intentioned farewell post when he constantly comes on the forums to complain about not getting the attention and respect he thinks he deserves.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 19:17
#10
Draycos's picture
Draycos

Phantom, I'm a little disgusted that you'd say "who are you, nobody cares" when you made half a dozen threads whining about people insulting you. At least VBH has a legitimate reason, not just "people on the internet are calling me names".

Good luck, VBH. I know I kinda vanished off the face of the earth for half a year, but I had some good times with you and the rest of the Watch.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 19:18
#11
Agentz's picture
Agentz
BLARGH

haters gon' hate. ~Z

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 19:32
#12
Xtweeterx's picture
Xtweeterx

On one hand, I do feel rather sympathetic for you, but on the other hand, I have to say, If you think you can "Outgrow" SK, then you, sir/madame, are dreadfully, DREADFULLY wrong.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 19:51
#13
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Hero-Of-Cheese
Cheese for you on your travels

This is one of the few farewell threads that is excused from getting hate. He didn't make a big deal about it. He just gave his thoughts and his experience from playing this game. Congratz on coming out, and happy travels.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 19:52
#14
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Midnight-Dj
@OP

Well, your mother is a bigot, don't mind her, God will punish her soon enough (that is, if he exists). And besides, it is okay to be gay, if you love another man, and the man loves you back, then that is love! And nothing is going to change that. Some say that gays are unatural, then plz explain why gay exists in nature?!

Wish you all the luck, hope you find someone who is just like you.

@Phantomhamachi
...Go hang out with Mawashingmachine, no one wants you here.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 20:06
#15
Colray's picture
Colray
Farewell

I agree with Hero-Of-Cheese, I mean besides for hate that some *cough*Phantom*cough* people give I hope you have a good life. /waves

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 20:06
#16
Pandafishie's picture
Pandafishie

@Dj
h8ers gonna h8 :/ makes me sad.

@OP
I'm happy that you found yourself and you're accepted by friends and family^^ Love exists when two hearts become one, not by gender roles. I'm glad you're happy! :D You seem like a pretty awesome guy and I'm sad I never ran across you in-game. Best wishes on your future!

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 20:37
#17
Fehzor's picture
Fehzor

I'll miss you, Venomous Biohazard. I never got to know you so much outside of the forums, and you seem to be much younger than myself or at least a bit, but it was nice knowing you and I generally enjoyed your posts. I'd comment on your social issues, but then the GMs would come on and very deliberately pick me out of the hate comments and smite me into oblivion cuz I'm strangely akin to a man that doesn't understand why his girlfriend left him 3 years ago.

And hey, you don't have to leave forever, you can always come back. So keep your stuff, and wait for the gunner update in however long. Could be all of 2 days.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 21:16
#18
Hexzyle's picture
Hexzyle
@Skyguarder

"@Phantomhamachi
You are one of the reasons why the community is toxic."

You've figured it out too?
Phantomhamachi is running a secret training programme for members of the forum community, teaching them all sorts of things like foul language, how to respond in a hostile manner to a neutral question, how to not use grammar correctly, how to press the caps lock key.
I've been trying to bust him for months but I've been hard pressed with obtaining a search warrant for his premises. Legality problems and all that, especially since the funds for his programme are mostly going towards helping terminally-ill children learn how to use forums.

You all need to understand that regardless of the reason someone makes a thread, someone is allowed to be apathetic and there's nothing we can do about it, except outweigh the negative people's comments with positive comments.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 21:49
#19
Gianor's picture
Gianor
Normally I'd be "that guy" but....

You made me cry bro, something the forums have never done to me, I respect you and your way to stand up to the community like this, and more importantly, to stand up to that big-mouth hamachi.

Hamachi, grow a heart, and perhaps some more pity, you severely need it.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 22:14
#20
Retequizzle's picture
Retequizzle

not gonna lie, for a while i wondered where you wondered off to. may not have had a chance to talk outside the forums but you were always a pleasure to see around when you did. best of luck to you in your future endeavors, and i'll be sure to direct perro and the rest see the thread as well if they haven't already.

in regards to phantom behaving in such a manner - this is all that needs to be said and kept in mind. it's clear enough that venom had a decent pool of friends here, so let that be the main point of the thread.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 22:26
#21
Pepperonius's picture
Pepperonius
@VBH

My friend, it's been too long. I'm glad to hear that things are working out for you, sir, and remember, I'm only a couple of hours away. You were always a joy to chat with.

Glad to have been there for you, and I'm thrilled your brothers and Dad were cool with it. Hearing that makes me a happy camper.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 22:48
#22
Mayaura's picture
Mayaura

Sexual orientation and practices are an inappropriate topic for these forums, and I expect this thread will get locked or deleted soon.

@ Midnight-Dj - Wow, I had no idea you felt that way about me, especially since we have been writing a collaborative fiction together, but I'll be sure to avoid and ignore you in the future.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 23:02
#23
Glowupball's picture
Glowupball
Hmm

Don't know who you are, but you have my respect. /e puts on formal attire and salutes Venomousbiohazard as he journeys onward in life.

The thread may die but not the thread that ties us SK players together.

/e leaves dramatically into the night.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 23:13
#24
Pepperonius's picture
Pepperonius
@mawa

no, if he's willing to share it, then no it shouldn't. We are all old enough to know what a homosexual is. Grow up.

Mon, 04/28/2014 - 23:49
#25
Fangel's picture
Fangel
Awww...

I'm glad you can overcome what others say, and accept yourself for who you are. After all, we live life to be happy, so why settle for less?

I'm glad that Spiral Knights has been able to help you through your times of trouble. I find that its cute art and simple gameplay keep pulling me back in whenever I feel down. I'd reckon you keep your account alive as a little piece of history, as we should never leave something behind that is a part of ourselves.

From us, to you: <3

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 08:11
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Oroseira's picture
Oroseira
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Tue, 04/29/2014 - 01:45
#27
Arcknightdelta's picture
Arcknightdelta
@ Phantomhamachi

I don't understand what you want mate? I always believe someone should speak freely if they 100% believe themselves to be right, even if you're wrong, accept advice from others and correct yourself. In the end the actions you make determine the type of person you are.

I honestly don't believe you mean harm. Maybe someone is putting you up to this for jokes, maybe you want to get back at those who did you wrong or maybe you're just bored of SK and need some amusement. Either way you're not doing yourself any favours. I don't mind sticking up for anyone who I feel is being treated unnecessarily but by acting this way I find it hard to do just that. Be yourself but be mindful of others.

@ everyone hating on Venomousbiohazard mom. Shame on you. A mothers role is to protect her child. Based on present circumstances and the situation she was in, anger took over and things might have gone too far. A mothers love for their child comes from God. That bond can never be broken. Whether she is wrong or right to get mad you don't have that right to insult someone you don't even know.

Besides this is a farewell thread so leave it at that. Does every thread on this forum have to be stained?

Edit: BTW I'm not religious. I do believe in God and try my best to practice, but my understanding comes from experience and reading. Maybe I am lucky enough to have awesome friends and a loving family.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 01:52
#28
Pepperonius's picture
Pepperonius
Perhaps we could get back to saying bye to VBH?

I don't think this is the place for these debates, and I don't particularly want a friend's goodbye turned into someone else's attention thread.

Later VBH, thanks for the memories.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 03:51
#29
Whimsicality's picture
Whimsicality

"Protection" is now defined as 'oppression through bigoted views'? Good grief. Leave me defenseless, then.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 04:24
#30
Draycos's picture
Draycos

Bad parents exist.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 04:51
#31
Arcknightdelta's picture
Arcknightdelta
@ Whimsicality

"Bigot" was your word. You are accusing someone unknown to you of bigotry based on a one sided story. Is this how the law works now? Someone is accused of a crime by one person so we all gather pitchforks and proceed like animals to the accused? This isn't a thread where we form opinions on other people, respect Venomousbiohazard decision to leave by bidding him farewell. I personally don't think any son or daughter would like to read anyone insulting their mother, no matter the circumstances.

This isn't an argument. If you feel you are doing something right then carry on. I'm sharing my opinion as you are sharing an opinion on his mother. It's not an issue unless you make it one.

@ Draycos: yes bad parents do indeed exist. But that pain the mother goes through during delivery is something she can never forget. There will always be something there for her child. As a man I can't explain it. You can keep your distance away from your family as long as you like. But in the end something draws you back. Saying sorry then will be too late.

Edit: We don't know the "reason" why she got mad and it would be ignorant to jump to your own conclusions on only hearing one side. You have made something out of nothing, by moving this threads intention to your own assumption. If no - one was willing to say you are wrong in fear of things escalating, at least I was.

Venomousbiohazard my advice to you is sort things out with your mom as you have done with your dad and brother. She will be hurting, anger gets the best of us all. Things will eventually calm and you will find yourself an even happier person.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 05:34
#32
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Draycos

I think if you were in the same position you wouldn't be as romantic about trying to make amends with someone that "abandoned" you psychologically for a stupid reason.

Judging by this post [and I know for sure from my time in TNW], VBH had to be someone he wasn't; note the part about his mother trying to "fix" him.

I think there's a difference between guidance and puppeteering. I'd rather not go back to the lunatic who pulled my strings before I broke them. They'd have to come to ME saying sorry, otherwise the whole thing might just blow up again.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 06:02
#33
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Arcknightdelta
@ Draycos

A parent has every right to fix their child if they believe, "if they believe", harm may come to them (child). He was young and learning what life was. His parents most likely didn't approve of him watching adult material on the internet, (which parent would) which is where things escalated (I can only go off what Venomousbiohazard has said here, I'm doing my best to choose my words carefully not to offend anyone), it's natural for any parent to get "over protective" at that instance.

At such an early age what does he know what he is doing is right or wrong? So what, the first time in his life he watches obscene content on the internet and in that instance he realises his sexual orientations? Who are you guys kidding? He said he was learning. He didn't know where he stood, he was confused. At that age feelings are very powerful. We have all been through it. That's why you confine in family. He was unfortunate to get caught. I'm sure if he was open and upfront, maybe wait for the right time to tell his parents, things would have turned out different. Fear was probably there and I get that.

My point is we are in no place to judge someone we don't know. I agree she may have taken things far, hence why I keep mentioning the word anger, but I can't insult her for the actions she took. In her mind she was doing what she thought was right at the time for her son. I can come out cleanly and say things should have been handled better at the time, but personally I would feel very bad if I accused someone of being something they turn out not to be, when I hear their version. Unfortunately we will never know both sides. So again don't say something to try and act clever when you don't know anything.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 06:06
#34
Tessarekt's picture
Tessarekt
Guys c'mon. This thread isn't

Guys c'mon. This thread isn't about him quitting. It's pretty obviously het just needed a place to relieve his burden by telling the story he kept to himself for a while.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 06:19
#35
Arcknightdelta's picture
Arcknightdelta
@ Tessarekt

Yep and the SK forum is a great place to relieve your burden when there are some people who find it difficult to remain neutral when they only hear one side of the coin.

I actually feel more sorry for Venomousbiohazard having to hear his mom being called a Bigot. If he is that angry with his mom and doesn't care. Well then that's another matter for another time. Regardless I hope I made some of you aware, if anyone wants lecturing on the difference between blindly accusing someone of something before and then after knowing all the facts feel free to contact me in game.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 06:19
#36
Draycos's picture
Draycos

There are better ways to educate a child about this stuff than demonizing him until he does what you want (or in VBH's case, being someone he isn't).

I've got no clue why you think that's OK, 'motherly rights' aside.

The thing is, I do know VBH isn't kidding about this. I heard this back in TNW, too, and there'd be no reason to keep a long con going.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 07:17
#37
Arcknightdelta's picture
Arcknightdelta
@ Draycos

I didn't give my opinion on his mother's actions, nor will I give my opinion on Venomousbiohazard. Clearly in my third paragraph in my response to you I said she may have taken things too far, but for reasons only a mother would know. Don't put words into my mouth please.

What I am saying is not wrong. What some of you are saying about her is wrong, because you have not heard her reason for doing what ever she has been accused to have done. But if you think you are right and know the full story, carry on doing what you think is best :)

In case you still don't understand me. I'm not saying to take sides. I'm saying wish this guy best of luck and keep your perspective neutral without directly insulting someone. I brought up mothers rights because some of you have got this concept of "oppression" from Venomousbiohazard of his mom and to satisfy yourself you are right, you're running with it, without looking both ways.

Family issues should never be discussed on this forum or any forum. Everyone has different opinions and honestly I think I'll stop now as things will only get worse as I myself don't know the full story and can only go off what I have read. Which is a one sided version. Hence why I have only based this argument on people accusing someone unknown to them with no direct (calling someone a Bigot is direct) reference to the actions of Venomousbiohazard or his mom.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 06:36
#38
Dermog's picture
Dermog
I have no idea who this guy is...

But what makes me happy is the fact that he was homeschooled (like me!).

Sadly, we must say goodbye to yet another Veteran. Have a good life, person I don't know at all.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 07:27
#39
Draycos's picture
Draycos

"She was doing what she thought was right for her son."
"It's natural for any parent to get over-protective."

This is what I'm 'putting words into your mouth' for.

You're pretty much saying 'it's OK if she did something badly, she had good intentions'. This is what I'm up in arms against. [Ex: Anti-vaccination movement]

If you're so concerned about people judging somebody they'll never know in situations like this...

Replace "Your mom is a bigot."
with "Your mom sounds like a bigot."

If that's still not right, use this: "Here's what I think about your situation."

And if that's not okay either: "I think I understand what you're going through."

It's a form of support.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 08:17
#40
Oroseira's picture
Oroseira
I take back everything I said.

Farewell. Have a great rest of your life.

I have also redacted the other posts I made in this thread.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 08:16
#41
Arcknightdelta's picture
Arcknightdelta
@ Draycos

She was doing what she THOUGHT was right for her son.

Is not the same as

I THINK she is doing something right for her son.

There is a big difference. Either you see that but don't want to accept it, and you are trying to make up excuses or you simply don't know.

Again you don't get what I am saying, you said things and I responded. The funny thing is you didn't say anything towards her, you got involved for no reason. You have built up a negative image of someone and strongly believe she has done what Venomousbiohazard has said she has done. Maybe she was OTT but who are we to judge? We don't know her and we don't know the reason why she did what she did. Why isn't anyone assuming Venomousbiohazard maybe was rude to his mother for her to get all mad? Maybe Venomousbiohazard is being OTT after all he did get caught watching obscene adult material on the internet. Any mother would be mad lol.

The best thing to do is support him by not offending anyone especially his mother. You guys seriously don't know how to judge a situation correctly without being too extreme for one side. In real life at home if you heard someone do something wrong from one person, would you go and punish the accused, or would you sort things out by judging who was right by listening to both sides?

My gripe is people ASSUMING she is a Bigot based on Venomousbiohazard version. My boss told my colleague once when she assumed something of someone not knowing the full story and complained to the boss, trying to get his side.

"When you assume wrongly, you are making an ASS out of U and ME"

Edit: @Phantomhamachi nice to see someone uses this forum with an open mind. I tip my hat to you sir.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 08:24
#42
Jabbzz's picture
Jabbzz
Whoa dere

xD In no way I am complaining about the OP, its actually quite an interesting story. But in the past, I have seen other people do this, and people completely rip them apart. But it seems this time not, and that is very good and surprising. Maybe it is because it is an actual life story and not just a rage post saying I quit. . . /shrug.

In all seerusness, I wish you the best in whatever endeavor you face next Venomousbiohazard

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 08:25
#43
Hexzyle's picture
Hexzyle

Am I the only person who finds it ironic that more hate, unrest and derailing came from the community's response to Phantom's comment than Phantom's comment itself?

Buttons pushed, troll succeeded, you all are as spiteful as the people you accuse. Must be easy to spit out angry comments at the people who seem apathetic and sympathize with those telling a sad story.

And if you think I'm taking sides here, I say nay.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 08:29
#44
Arcknightdelta's picture
Arcknightdelta
@ Jabbzz

Who said anything about you assuming Venomousbiohazard mom is a Bigot?

The argument here is over nothing really. People just don't realise it's not right to go too extreme one sided and call someone something they might not be. I pointed that out and obviously the ones assuming are being over defensive of their actions. Which is quite sad actually.

@ Hexzyle actually this argument is based on what Whimsicality has said.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 08:42
#45
Oroseira's picture
Oroseira
@Hexzyle

You actually have a good point there. If you feed a troll, they win. If you don't, you win.

The argument here is over nothing really.
I agree. What is the point of war, if it ends with death?

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 08:44
#46
Arcknightdelta's picture
Arcknightdelta
@ Phantomhamachi

No one was trolling here. My argument is on how people should offer support by not taking sides and insulting someone they assume to be in the wrong with no evidence. It was very simple for the ones name calling to be upfront and admit their wrong doing.

Draycos has a different perspective or just wants to get me to say Venomousbiohazard's mom was right. Which I haven't and won't say. As I don't judge anyone without clear cut evidence.

Maybe I was raised by Aliens and listening to the advice your parents give over complete strangers on the internet is wrong.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 08:46
#47
Oroseira's picture
Oroseira
Well then.

You can judge me on all the evidence I've given. There is no amount of atoning that can redeem me now.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 08:53
#48
Jabbzz's picture
Jabbzz
@ Arcknightdelta

When did I say that his mom is a Bigot? o-o Geez talk about assumptions, I'm just spectating this argument, not in it.

@ Hexzyle This is so true, but the response seems to be a bit more than just Phantom's post.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 09:17
#49
Arcknightdelta's picture
Arcknightdelta
@ Phantomhamachi

Like I said. You were treated badly by some idiots. I don't condone some of your actions but I don't disregard them. I feel the same way sometimes. Trying to get your point across without people assuming what they want to think is very difficult here. It's clear who was in the wrong and who tried to make them realise their wrong doing. If it's not my place to correct someone it's not their place to say something wrong with no thought.

@ Jabbzz sorry, I mean why would you explain your actions when it is irrelevant to the argument that was going on.

Edit: In all fairness I'm being told I am wrong when I told someone they are wrong for assuming Venomousbiohazard's mom is a bigot with no evidence this kid was actually treated the way he describes. I find that very disrespectful towards his mom. That's were the argument began.

Edit: I'm not coming back to this thread again so either accept what I said and realize what Whimsicality did was wrong. Or carry on doing what you think is right. At the end of the day my slate is clean, and I'm not someone to kid myself. Quote this last part if you like, it doesn't bother me.

Tue, 04/29/2014 - 09:08
#50
Seiran's picture
Seiran
:;

I'm not one for joining or making farewell threads, especially since I can just come back to the game when I'm bored. But it's interesting to see when a game like this has helped play a role in someone's life for something other than just wasting time.

best of luck, OP.

------

@wondering why this goodbye thread went so differently:
The thing with making threads on forums is that there's usually a tradeoff between:
A- OP expressing self
B- OP contributing to other people (or letting other people contribute)

Most goodbye threads are just self-expression with little value to other people. Venomousbiohazard gave a feel-grabbing story :;

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